Okay. My internet is too slow to upload just this "post" =____=

Anyway, those who knows Neon Uchuujin....he's father passed away on Wednesday. He was on he's way back home from Taiping and got into an accident. Neon was at Kim house when it happen and got a call and rushed home and went to Taiping with he's uncle. I found out when I was at work and Hana called me. I was totally shock. I remembered my hand was shaking in that time. When I got back home Eu Lynn called me before I could dial her number, i wanted to ask if it were true. I was trying to take it as if Hana was just joking and that she and Neon has plot to pull a joke on me. But Eu Lynn confirm it was. I was extremely worried. Thinking how he's life and he's younger brother with grandmother would be. Neon already lost he's mother 11 years ago due to cancer and now he's father...who died too young. Father only 48 years old and doing well and earning good salary. Luckily father had a life insurance and it was enough for the two sons to finsh college and live a few years without working. But they still have to find a way to withdraw all the money from he's father bank or not the bank will freeze the account and it will take them a whole 1 or 2 years until they unfreeze it.

Thursday we all went to Ignatius church at Kelana Jaya, I get to see he's father face in the coffin. He looks.....like he was just sleeping. There was a lot of singing going on. Neon ex-girlfriend, Shamini came. Yes. They broke up like a month ago. No. It has nothing to do with me that they break up and nor did I ask him to break up with her. Since I first heard about her until that argue we had....I have NEVER EVER had the thought of asking Neon to break up with her. It has never cross my mind until now. Anyway, I thought it was sweet of her to come and comfort Neon at a time like this and show some respect to he's father. As she passed by me, who was sitting on a chair. I looked at her, hoping to have a eyes contact and say "hello" to her. But she didn't, she passed so close to me and didn't look at me. Neon tell me later also that she doesn't want to talk to me, anyway. I hold no grudge against that girl even thou it was because of her i almost lost a very good friend. But i still hold no grudge on her. Simply because she's a nobody to me. That why. It will be simply be a waste of my hatred and anger also. Life is short and time is gold. I have something else better to do and use my emotion for something and someone else. Dad told me also that hatred and holding grudge are not good, must learn to forget and forgive....and that what I'm trying to do. Anyway, enough of her. She's just a shadow to most of us who wish to have nothing to do with her at all. I only came on that Thursday night cuz I was working, actually...make it evening cuz i left quite early. Naveen came the second time, Eu Lynn and vanchrian came later, as usual the love bird couple are usual....late. Don't you guyz DARE be late in my future wedding ya or even my funeral! XD My sis and Kim came in the afternoon and left in the evening. I was there probabl around 10pm or later?

Saturday is the actual cremation. They had it around 2pm at the same Church. After that some went to the cremation place somewhere in old PJ area, while Naveen, Kim and I went into Naveen car. While at it, Kim scolded me for argueing with Neon. I say man....=____=;; Actually right. It consider we didn't even argue. Why? When Neon called about the blog it was more like he was scolding me and I trying to explain to him until the phone went off suddenly and since in tat time Neon seem refuses to listen to me I just kept ignoring he's calls. Even when we did talk to each other later, to me there was no indicate we were argueing at all. It was mostly a very most frustration conversation we had. The REAL argue was with thE ex-girlfriend (I pity her that a lot of people don't like her, even some said that they didn't quite like her when they first saw her and someone was SO excited that they broke off and it wasn't me ya. Someone else...). So there wasn't any arguement between us, but i guess Neon take it that way. But still....like sial only got scolded by Kim on that day XD;;. I wanted to strangle him actually for bringing up such frustrating past to me when i'm trying to forget about it. hahahaha XD;; But i understand...it isn't nice for two close friend to be fighting. He made me promise not to argue with Neon again....which that will be kinda hard....cuz whether the situation is serious or just goofing, we will still fight and argue. That why he's my little brother 8D After some of us did our last respect to he's father and the body was send into the cremation building....Neon started crying reallyreally hard. I felt hopeless in that time....didn't know what to do. But when he came gathering around with Wataru, Naveen, Kim, Eu Lynn and me, Eu Lynn mention the word "GUNDAM" and it was enough to make him smile like there no tomorrow and say "I can buy Kamen Raider belt 8D" and the idiot did...he bought it today....i want to kill him DX

At the end of the cremation also, there was a bit tense going on.....someone was on the edge of the line to kill someone, luckily i was there to hold that little fella back from killing that person o___O;;;

Anyway, it been a tiring day....thought today wanted to rest and maybe go visit Neon for awhile. But mum dragged me all day long at Ikano Power.....So tired right now. In same time i'm kinda feeling down cuz i feel like a certain someone is avoiding me or something...maybe just being really busy and i'm just being paranoid...

I was about to go eat and rest and sleep when my comp notify me of new email. ONCE AGAIN. Livejournal send me a "lost password". I don't know if this is the same person. But here what i just notice in their email....Livejournal give away, an information of to where the person was trying to hack me by giving me the IP ADDRESS. Yes. Livejournal give information of the person IP address and i google it and it seem the one trying to hack me isn't from Malaysia. I heard from people if you have a certain people IP address you can use it to hack their internet connection and screw with their computer with that way even if you live miles away from them.

The next time I get a lost password email again.....I will pass your IP ADDRESS to my hacker friends and make them hack your internet connection and also your email and whatever accounts you have and see if it seem fun to you being hack instead you hacking into people! What is it that you fuckers WANT from my account? There nothing here to be hack for! Sheesh!

off to bed...

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Oh yeah. Please don't send msg in my previous blog. I don't want to keep re-reading it in my email every time someone comment on that blog esply if the msg has nothing to do with the blog topic. There is a "send message" option in the lj user profile. Please use that instead if you want to talk something off topic. Thank you
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Today someone msg me here saying she notice that i was in her friend list and from there i too just realized that she is. Check through her journal, her entire journal and i am very sure i also did not add her to my list. I started checking my friend list and notice some was already in my mutual friend list which i do not remember at all adding you guyz back.

I don't mind random people adding me. Since I started this livejournal back in 2004 or 2005, i always welcome random people adding me. I like reading others journal. But it still up to me to add you back also. But it still funny that some of you are already in my mutual friend list before i could do anything o_____O

Don't worry. I won't remove you guyz or anything. But you can request if you want too =)

OMG....he's like 10 time prettier and cuter than I am....o_____O;;;

Watch the video! It is soooo cool! I mean the idea that you can really interact with a 3D character is just waaaay to cool. I hope in the future they can make it in a way there is more characters that we can choose from to interact. Each with different personalities and character design. Or even better! We can design them ourselve! But I think by that time we would have children and it will be them getting to play all this cool stuffs!

You can read more about this thing here at Project Natal. It was my dad who was excitedly showing me this just now and now I'm sharing this with you all =)

I LOL so much when Kristen went for the mic and Robert face.....was priceless! I keep watching that part XD

When we think about love we wish that....

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And someone who want you and need you by their side and inside their life..........I would do this for that person, if i was given a chance and more time to show. But it sad when they don't feel or think the same way as you do. But if you were ask to choose one of these....which one would you pick?

I'm itching all over my body and went to see the doc. She gave me two pills that will really knock me to sleep which it did. I took it at night, but the effect lasted until around 1pm just now....not only that...the effect sure made me dream of a total 2 different dream. I can't remember much thou, but i tell what i can remember...

The first one I dreamt that there was two of them. One is a looking boy who's probably around he's teenager age and one a young adult. They both travel together and most of the part i forgot. Suddenly they we facing me and we totally had martial art scene together 8D;; But i guess in the end they loss and I think we made a deal too....the deal was if they lost they had to be my bodyguard? o__O;; What the hell.....I'm not sure thou....or was it the young adult was the one wanted to be my bodyguard and following me around. Well, the two followed me around ever since and the dream goes on and i can't remember along the way. But before I woke up....it seem that the relationship between me and the young adult got really close and at the end we were kissing than i got up.

Than i fall asleep and had ANOTHER DREAM!

It seem i was on a trip with some people which i'm not sure who and how many. We were at this beautiful place and surprising the place i was in was the same place i had dream of a few time before and that was back in primary. But something happen and i can't remember these part at all. Later there was a group of PEGASUS flying by us really fast and they were flying down and flying up back. It was breath taking and I held both of my arm into the sky while smiling. Suddenly this Dark brown-black pegasus looked down and me and dove down. I was shock and surprised and didn't had a chance to jump aside as it was coming like...really fast straight toward me. I had no choice but to grab onto it by wrapping my arm around it neck right from the front and it shot up into the sky along with me. Here where i thought my dream was real cuz i could feel the pressure of the wind onto me as the pegasus zooming up into the sky and straight into the clouds and next thing i know i was in another world and i can't remember the rest o____O;;

Weird dreams there but it was fun XD

I love getting different dreams while i sleep. Back when i was very young i used to dream like everyday and all of them was the adventures kind of dream. Hope i dream more tonight XD

I want this Rise figuriiiiiiiiiiiiiine~! Her body is just so....mature, make her so dangerously HOT! *nosebleed* This is soooooooooo her! Kim would love to get he's hand on this!

Night of the Museum! Yes! Beat Terminator by $53.5, while Terminator is $43 million. Amazing 8D
Going for job interview tomorrow. I don't think so I'm getting the job at all with the kind of drawing that I'm gonna show to them.....