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Kamina....I wish you DAMN RIGHT was real here in my world! I would LOVE to marry you! No mean is as a real man than you are Kamina! (gone googoo gaagaa over Kamina)

wanted to re-heat the water and when i switch it on, the plug exploded a little and it started burning. black smoke started to come out and i used something to switch it off. God....the smoke making me to cough right now. It so strong...

8 more days.......8 MORE DAYS TILL CF!! PANIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIC~!!!!! DX

Going to get my tickets at suncomic on saturday and i really have the urge to get their t-shirt too XD
Yesterday I dreamt that I was cosplaying the older version of Simon (Gurren Lagann) and now the idea of it is stuck in my head. Zymz give me the green like to "DO EEEEEEEEEEEEEETTT~!!" Indeed I will XD

Can someone help me? Where can I find a much bigger and clearer pic of this


That has muchmuch detail? I can't seem to find the one that has him not wearing the blue jacket and also a shot view of the back outfit.

But I need to get my hand on two costume that i own to people. It just that I been waaaaaaaaay too busy. So sorry guyz and it doesn't help also when shits happen

This medications are crazy! I didn't know it gonna make me delusion, wobbly, acting weird and even say things weird after waking up that is.....what a side effect. Been 3 days since I stayed home and it feel like weeks or month since i last time went to work.

I really can't wait for CF! I miss everyone sosososo dearly. Must bring camera and camwhore with them! Medication is kinda kicking in now...feeling wobbly and sleepy....=____=

Tomorrow I'm working

Good story teller? No wonder you're so good at acting, making dramas, twisting stories and telling.....LIES too. Thankz for telling us thou, now we all can be more careful what you say things to us and others 8D

it the 3rd day of me at home. not going to work. seem like i had high fever. i'm feeling a bit better. the cough still there and my body hurts whenever i cough. I got a real strong medications that will put me to sleep everytime i take them. so hopefully i recover fully today so that i can go work tomorrow. i miss working already...XD

Went to work yesterday with a fever. Today I stay at home and my cough was so bad. Yesterday night I couldn't take a breath without triggering my cough. It was sososooooo difficult to breathe yesterday. I couldn't sleep.....and today rain also didn't really help me and i haven't gone see the doc. I hate going to clinic >.<;;;

It scary at the thought that it.....DECEMBER already....goodness. How did time fly so fast....? I feel like this year I wasted my whole year of 2009. Nothing but miserable. But then again I gain also happiness from people who i just made friend with this year. A whole new chapter in me. As weak as I am...I am gaining strength and also gaining a new happiness in my life. But relationship isn't my option in my life for probably the longest or even maybe never. Need to focus on myself. Since I was very young until now, people always say that I don't love myself much, always putting myself aside and worrying about others. I guess that true.....but it a habit i find really difficult to break.

CF is soooo just around the corner and I can't wait to meet all my friends! I wanna hug them, kiss them and meet those who i haven't met in person yet, but has spoken too through Facebook. Oh yea, I'm pretty much on FB this days. So anything just go there. I saw a really smexy bag at cineleisure and i really want it! It gonna be my victim for me to just throw anything in it and bring it with me this coming CF.

Oh gosh....i don't know what else to type down......I'm going to rest. i'll update more when I can remember things.....

Great

Fever.....with a running nose. I wanna go work. Don't wanna stay home and some more I promised Rahman to tell him something. I'm so evil. I'm driving him crazy. He's trying to guess what it is. So cute. I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE torturing he's mind. hahaha XD

Grandma is here to stay with us. Dunno how long. But shuck! I'll be working. So can only spend time with her at night....

Thought wanted to use this week to hang out with my friend after work, friends that bitches me about ditching them. I'm sorry that I'm working FULL TIME and you're not really! Yes. Work surely has taken a toll on me to spend time with my friends. Patient. When I have time and energy I will find time to hang out with you all. OKAY? At least you suckers have the the day to spend time with your bf and gf and friends and party and shopping the WHOLE weekday when I have to WORK. So cut me some slack, okay. It not that I don't miss you guyz at all. I do. VERY MUCH. Is just that lately we have to rush our work to meet the deadline and even have to stay back until 9:30 and imagine I have to wake up 6:30 - 7am to get ready for work. So please reconsider my situation, aye? Be fair also to my other friends who don't get to see me at all since i started working. At least some of you guyz get to see me a couple of times within this few months.

I have such cute spoilt friends. HAHAHAHA. Don't worry. We will see each other soon. My workload has lessen lately (hopefully). So maybe I won't be too tired when you ask me out, okay?

Now waiting for my uncles (which one of them is here already) to come and after that we're heading out for dinner. I'm hungry. Even thou I had only 3 days holiday. I sure used my Friday and Saturday to sleep a lot and Sunday to have my own quiet moment to myself. I feel so much better with the rest I got. AWESOME.

Sooooooooooooooooo~!!!

I thought today I call some friends who I haven't hang out or see them for the longest time. But I.....slept the whole day today. Awesome not? That just show how tired I am. How work and everything has taken a toll on me. I really deserve the sleep, indeed. What plan i got tomorrow....hmmm......another sleep i guess....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!!

I really want someone to give me present Nokia N86 (black) for me bday. That seem to be the only wishlist that I want for my bday. The rest is something I can just dream of.

Dedicating this song for all the heart broken people out there



December coming near. By December I'm gonna go spoilt myself and then arrange time to hangout with different group of my friends. Not gonna be easy cuz there just so many of you people! CF coming too. I sure will party hard on that day. Hopefully......if my emotion doesn't triggers. For now...I should enjoy the short holiday I have while it last. Tomorrow will be the last day.

It true. You spend a lot of time in the office you tend to have a crush on one of your colleague. Scary.

Anywho...Hung out with Neon like...3 days ago. Poor boy so tired. But still willing to wait for me to finish work just to see me. XD

Neon: You know. My ex girlfriend....
ME: Which one?
Neon: .......You make it sound like I'm a playboy or something...

I'm sorry. You're the one that in and out from relationship since we first became friend and until now. While I only had ONE. Aiyo...! You're not playboy la. Playboy is when a guy is in more than one relationship la. CEH! I need to ask maaaa. How should I know which one you talking about XD

In the end it Ling Ling (is that her name?). One of he's ex's which didn't turn out well cuz there was no communication between them, no connection. She was like a duck and he's a chicken. Seem like she contacted him out of the blue and ask to hang out. I thought that was very good.

Anyway, since most of the animasia spend a lot of time together and we almost barely don't see our other friends. We entertain each other and even go watch movie together after work. 2 days ago, 8 of us went and watch Christmas Carol which I really LOVE. Jim Carrey some more! Huge fan of he's. So who went to the movie with me? Iqa, Das, Guan, Pakngah, Wan, Ili, Rahman and myself. Yea. 4 girls and 4 boys. Crazy. It like a huge dating group XD Really had awesome time together. But it really does feel like a huge dating group.....heeee!

Well, Selamat Hari Raya Haji and Happy Thanks Giving to everyone. Today I bought myself a new wallet like....finally. The last time I bought one was like...back when I was 19 or 20? Next month gonna buy me self a new bag. Cuz I want too 8D Gosh....I was so sleepy yesterday that I just change clothes and didn't even shower and went to sleep. Woke up this morning to prepare food and went back to sleep till 3pm I think. I must be really tired....

Well, that all for today. It just a random blog

Well, if I'm blonde. It make you a DUMB blonde than =)

Well, life been okay with me even thou shitty stuffs still do happen. But my friends keep me together and I have to say thanks to the Animasian to make it feel home there at office and every each of them have been very nice and helpful. Thank you isn't enough for me. I wish I could do something for everyone and sorry you guyz had to deal with my craziness....8D;;

But working there really made me feel like i found a place, a place where i can really call home. People where i can really call family. A lot of them has been so nice to me that i feel like crying and in the same time scared also. I'm taking slowly to step out from my safe zone and...open up a bit to people around me, but not fully. Not I hope to find my rightful place in a man arm that truly love me....HAHAHAHAHA! So fantasy 8D Let skip that part!

This month and next month i really need to safe money and i can not decide to buy a new pendrive and headphone or pendrive and shoes or shoes and headphone. I can only buy two and i just can not decide 8D

I do need new shoes.........Bata enough cuz their price are reasonable. Eeeerrrrr....*gone to write down some lists*

Anyway, I'm a happy girl!! I finally did it! I did something that I been wanting to do since last month. Sorry. Can't tell you guyz! It something only some of my animasian girls knows about it XD It was a tough battle. But i finally did it after many guts to do so. Now I feel so happy! I can sleep happily tonight without another tears...=DI

I'm gonna go sleep soon....It a very nice night weather XD
Is obsessed with Elton John's song "I want love"

LJ has a new layout and I wanna try it. I like this one. It cheerful and so i like it. Suitable for me who wanna start over a new life, new chapter, new story. I wanted to change Hana LJ layout too. But....I forgot her password 8D;;;

The beginning of my journey was very rocky after the break-up. But after I started working I been more stronger. Months has passed, but for some reason this month I'm suddenly all weak. I misses him. I want him. I need him. I cry and cry. Even after all that I'm proud to say I cry for awhile and stood up again as if I never did. Always looking forward to see my friends at Animasia cuz they make me smile despite all the load of work to do. I'm moving on,. It just take times and I'm taking it slowly too. I just need to learn to let go of it, love myself again and forgive him somehow. 

But I really want to return the necklace he gave me.....It was the necklace he gave on the day I thought our relationship really had improve and he was back to he's caring and loving self again toward me, but that all ended when he dump me few days after he gave me the necklace. So i think I wanna give it back to him. I don't want to remember the happy moment. I don't regret. I just don't wanna remember it everytime I see the necklace. I don't wear it anymore too. So it will be a waste. Better give it back to him. The idea that he has gotten over me at a speed of light....it a huge ouch to me. I think he didn't want me for quite a moment already before dumping me. He want to be friend. Sure. But I don't see the "FRIEND" thing going on. I told him it was impossible. He still want too. Okay. I made the effort as a friend. But none from him. Fine. I decided to stop calling him.

I just need to find one of this day to drive over he's place and drop the necklace to him or something. asking him out is so impossible. He said he's busy. But for some reason have time with he's friends. I don't think so he even want to hangout with me ever.

So that it....I'm moving on. The idea to fall in love and be in relationship with someone and give everything that i got toward a guy....those thought are scaring me. I don't think so i can love and do everything i can for him like I did for Faiz, i don't think i can show the kind of love i did to Faiz. I don't think so. So relationship is a nono for me for now or forever.

Don't worry. I'm moving on. If love strike me again.....probably i accept it or not....see how

Neon and I went to Ikea cuz he wanted to buy container for he's Gundam cards which I also wanna buy the container one of these day to use it to keep my small little stuffs. Had a good meatballs and a very fresh shrimp sandwich. Oh. I also got a soft pillow for my office where i will place it for my back and sleep on it on my break time.

We went to SASA and Neon bought for me this whitening teeth which should work in just 5 days thingy. So gonna try if it work. If it does I'm buying one for him! Hahahaha! Thank you, Neon XD So, right now I'm using and I'm suppose to leave it for....30 minute. But I feel like those people in the boxing competition where they wear the stuff in their mouth to protect their teeth thingy XD;;;

Before we went home we went to the anime shop and I bought Studi Ghibli DVD that has 18 of it anime. I of course will watch Princess Mononoke cuz that was the very first one I watch from them and it was love at first sight for me and I'm still in love with it. Make me wanna cosplay the hero of the story XD

I haven't been on Restaurant City on Facebook for a LOOOOOOOOONG time cuz before this I have lot of trouble uploading them. But now I tried and it seem okay thou. Looks like the some people who did Restaurant City has a new game base on farm called Country Story and seem like lotsa people like it from the looks of the rate. So gonna try it now. Looks like you can choose gender.......I dunno what gender to be here...hahaha...okay la. Girl, girl la! XD

Okay, I stop for awhile blogging to try that game and.....the way she is digging the ground is like bashing a person so badly on the ground O____O;; I think I'm gonna enjoy this game way better than any of those farm game on FB. HANA! Join hubby farming there 8D

Next month Bubba Gump cuz Eu Lynn say so......XD;;

I promise her anyway, the least thing I can do for being an awesome bitchy friend. HAHAHAHAHA. Nono. Seriously. As bitchy as she is I'm glad she gave me a chance to get to know her and accepting her. I remember back than I wasn't quite...comfortable with her honestly. But now I love her! XD;;

Bubba Gump....I still think that we all four (Neon, Waimun, Eu Lynn and me) should share the food cuz the amount of food for one dish there is quite big and I think some of them are enough to feed 5 people all together and not to mention the prizing also.....but for Eu Lynn we go there! Buuuut we can not do this all the time okay, Eu Lynn. We should start investing money for the future not on food.....XD;; Hopefully after Bubba Gump I still have some money to buy a 16gb memory card for my PSP.....I really want it to put in more games. I'm so hungry.....can't stop thinking about meatballs. NEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON! I summon you!! QUICKLY!!! D8

What else.....Halloween. Gazillion times my friends invited me for their Halloween party but I have never went once in my life. So hoping this year Animasia would have one at their place. I really wanna dress up XD

So many things to do so little time. I mean....It just felt like it was last week that September came around and also puasa. Blinkblink and suddenly it September 23rd already. Like.....WOW. I been waaaaay too much in the office. People keep asking how long will I be in Animasia....I don't know. But I know one day I will leave. Cuz I want to venture out. Starting off also I'm not the type who can just sit at the desk and stuck in the office one whole day. I'm active. So I guess maybe I wanna go find a job where I can venture around and see the world. So one day I will have to leave Animasia and do something different. But right now I will stay there and by far I'm happy there.
 

For some strange reason.....I can't turn off my phone o___O;;;

No matter how many time I press the button it won't....so had to take the battery out and put it back in. Anyway, need to do something like cleaning the front house and get ready. Meatball is so calling to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~! As long there meatball i survive!!!!

I need to clear something up after reading a blog and i don't really care if she read it. Just wanna clear things up and and get this out from my chest. So there gonna be some repeats from my previous blog cuz she seem to be still STUPID not understanding what I'm trying to say and I think she still would be la. But oh well....here goes.

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I hope she move on...it isn't good for the heart, soul and body. I have. So she should.

Anyway, Raya was awesome to me and foods was too. Raya is where we forgive and forget. So I wanna say....I'm sorry for the harsh things I said and done, from the end of my hair and all the way to my feets. I'm sorry. I also forgive and forget to those who had said and done harsh things toward me. Including her who was the reason that Neon almost and lost all he's friends. I forgive her. But there one friend I still can't forgive and gorget what she did to me even thou we are an old friend. Yes. Seem unfair when I forgive Neon ex and not her, but i wanna learn to let go what has happen between Neon's ex and me. Anyway, I still can't bring myself to forgive her.....after all what she did and completely abandon me after using me and throwing me aside like a broken doll. I still misses and love her very much. But I'm still not there to forgive her. But where ever she is....i hope she has a good life.

For that I end this journal. Hoping to open new chapter. Until next Raya. Have a nice day to all bitches and bastard out there. Oh! Atifi! Thank you so much for getting me the Stila bronzer!!! I am so much in love with it! It so great! Thank you! Thank you!! I really should get my own paypal la.....XD;;

Anyway, gonna go wash outside my house and get ready to go out with Neon to Ikea. He want to look for something for he's apartment, I guess and while I want meatball!! Oh yea! Will blog about raya later. Sis and I kidnap Neon all the way to Kuantan for Raya!!

Before the arrow strike 12 midnight and 29 August end.....

Happy Birthday to the late Michael Jackson. I missed you =)

I nearly lost my life watching this...I literally died stone cold for 3 minute and 20 second while watching this 8D;;;



My mum finally agree that I'll get my PSP as my Raya stuff. So no need shirt or anything from mum except for PSP. ZACK FAIR! I'm coming for you HUBBY!! Later I wanna put a wallpaper of Zack and Tereus on my PSP XD

Today I had no dinner for buka puasa except for some soup and left over pizza. Bro was suppose to be in charge of cooking today. But dude slept the wntire day until few minute before buka puasa. So mum was very unhappy and for that she drag me down with her. I invited her out and she said "No. I'm unhappy with brother" and I..."But I'm hungry..." and she gave the attitude she doesn't care. SELFISH.

Even after eating something bit and there, i'm still hungry. Just now she was like "You're a muslim. Go pray. As a muslim we should do our duty to go pray" and I shoot her down "YEA! And mother has DUTY to acknowledge when one is hungry and not be selfish just bcuz she's upset about someone and let her child be hungry!". I really rub it on the spot, nice and smoothly. She felt bad about it and gave me some money. But I'm way to lazy to go out now to buy food.

yinghua  not sure if you got my reply. But I already bank in and if anything let me know ya. About picking it up....where do you live ya 8D

Going to go cook maggi and head off to bed. Tomorrow buka puasa with my entire office and watch move "UP" at the Garden